I Can See Clearly Now the Blur is Gone

This morning I woke up with The most Painful Migraine I have had in some time. It seriously felt like I had a drill going through my skull while my head was on fire! Plus, I could barely see out of my right eye. I was in so much pain, I decided that I just really didn't feel like braving my way to General Psychology and listening to Dr. Kemp drone on about things I already know and his experiences in graduate school. (Seriously, when am I ever going to use someone else's graduate stories in real life?) Well, I woke up an hour later, in even worse pain than I was in when I originally woke up. While I could see clearly, my stomach now felt like some big body-builder was punching me repeatedly in the stomach. Plus, light hurt my eyes so much! (Trust me, photo-sensitivity, sensitivity to light, is a painful, painful thing.)

I was glad at the time I was experiencing mild to no audio-sensitivity (sound = pain). I was equally glad that my next class was Experiencing Music, which is in a dimly lit room. Well, I was glad, all the way up until I tried actually walking to class. That's when the dizziness set in. Walking to class while the whole world spun around me. It wasn't fun. I felt even more like I wanted to throw up. Any way, I'm sitting in class, feeling like death, when my photo-sensitivity decides I need to be hurt by sound now, right as we start listening to Operas! I mean, opera hurts enough on its own, but when you add audio-sensitivity into the mix, that's an all new kind of pain.

After class, I drag myself back to my dorm room. I know that it is lunch time, but the apple I grabbed on my way to Experiencing Music had been unappealing and tasted terrible. I had no appetite, but I knew I had to eat something. So, I walk into the cafeteria, looking at all the food there. I really don't like the food there, but I have a meal plan that lets me eat there unlimited every time it's open, so I almost always eat there. Nothing sounded or looked good to me. Nothing was appealing. Normally I can find something or throw a quick dish together using odds and ends from the food available there. Yet I couldn't today. After a lot of self-motivating, I finally forced myself to choke down some spaghetti with some tomato sauce.

Then, I head off to Modern American Literature to take my test. With a migraine. A test I have not studied for, with my head feeling like it was splitting in two, despite taking some Excedrin for the pain. Fortunately for me, I knew most of the test and could easily pick out 8 of 12 items to identify (which was the idea of the test) with only one author forgotten. Not too bad if I say so myself.

This is where my day starts to get better. I get a call from Wal-Mart letting me know my new glasses are in, and it was only Wednesday that I had my eye exam. I picked up my glasses and got my trial pair of contacts in (it took me and hour and a half to get them in both eyes, one out and back in again, but it was worth it!). My migraine had subsided or been dulled enough that I had an appetite again, so a ate a healthy (in portion) dinner. Then, lo and behold, I'm practicing on my guitar and I finally was able to play three chords in succession without any pauses! (Lily, I'm still not 100% sure in what book I read Jasmine Lily, but I like my guitar's name!) I was so excited, especially since I had once played two chords in succession and could never do it again. Well, I kept at it, and have now played four chords in succession! I think I finally got past the little stump in my practicing. Soon, I will hopefully be able to play the song I am learning!

It's funny how our days are. We have bad days, yet we still have an Awesome God who can give us little bits of joy, even when we're having bad days. Today, I enjoyed four hours of sight without the aid of glasses, tomorrow will find me able to use my trial contacts for a full six hours. Tonight, I had some pancakes at an event we had in my building and was able to play some ping-pong, at which I am happy to say I am slowly improving. Our God is an Awesome God and I am glad to serve Him, even on migraine days.